its sept15,06, good morning wes, madling arw na naman...

days went by so quickly, up to now, everything inside my head confuses me on what will happen next... life is so short, but the question is, can i make the most of it... life sucks,life is beautiful...yup, deal with it. I ain't wanna sound like im hopeless, just wanna tell my own journey with the last 2 months i dealt with...

for people who wanted to check my stories or status or comments, read my blog...

its my third day today at work, still cant believe im working again... my senses are working but my mind still needs recharging... sad to say, never had the chance when i came home.... though a thorough relationship relaxation and mingling had happened a lot....

i guess, this entry serves as my open diary update, i'll just print it out and attach it to my journal, poor thing never had the chance to update my life from that day on...

Aug4, the airplane has landed to my homeland, feeling excited, feeling weird because of the weather and irritated by personnel who wanted to help,yet wanted dollats in exchange... yup, very pinoy setting....Glad to see my ever dearest,longing-to-see sister, my mom and dad(who came home first), and cousins whom i always spend time with... Alas, the extended family is complete again plus a bunch of relatives ready and crazy for the wedding....

For some people, number 8 means eternal, that's why the wedding date was august8. I guess there's no harm in following or believing in that. For me, that night was splendid. A celebration of families, relatives and friends for two hearts that found their ways to become as one. At last, the other half, meets the other half, and in became whole. I've been an abay for many times, whenever a wedding is held in our closely tied families, i can't help but to shed a tear of joy while the bride and/or groom walks down the aisle. A human feeling bursts out and cant be denied. One thing's for sure, you made a connection. A connection whom everybody knows about, it's love.

The night ended with beautiful people and sweet songs, not to mention the Fernwood garden was indeed a magical place at night. For sure, many girls had talked about their dream weddings once again. Me, i just need some rest and cant wait to meet my friends...

At a despedida de soltera, Kennard caught me talking from a far (firstly receognized by his mom/dad)... The world is just so small, that you can't hide, when the time comes for you to be seen.. My plan was to surprise the barkada, but it ended up in a supposed-to-be a Starbucks reunion, into a Lala land surprise welcome party.... NIce to be home with friends, admittedly, i was surprised and really really happy... Mantakin mo naman ang effort! Sino bang hindi matutuwa and matatawa sa mga taong my hawak ng balloons na masayang-masaya dahil binuksan ang patay na ilaw dahil dumating nako... hehe.... ang saya, with matching camcorder oa ng kawaii na si mai... anubayun? ang kulet nilang lhat... First time i saw Ken officially with Ets, Lala and JD who were hyper and whom i missed so much, Mai who was so into 'My girl" Sabihin mo na ryt?, Mona na talaga namang na=touched ako dhil naka archi uniform pa khit alas nwebe na,Mau who made an effort khit exams pa bukas and Paul, na tipong di narin nila nakikita...Hanep, ang saya-saya...

The night ended having five of us, me,jd,lala,mai and pau. San kame? sa Blue Wave... Asteeg ng trip, all the way there for missing coffee and stories... this was a warm-up kamustahan for more coffee sessions i'll have. At syempre, stay kina Lala wid mai and jades. (Mai, thank u for staying, khit midterms mo pa ng hapon, never had the chance to see you agen, pero promise, my kagat pagnalik...hehhe...aww). She did knew something new that night.

Days have passed, Mega gala sa mga lugar na di ko pa napupuntahan at gustong bisitahin at kamustahin ule. I saw my university and fellow feusians, and made a lot of transcript transactions, checked out Mall of Asia(huge in size, there's no way our mall can beat that..huhu..), watched sukob(so funny..missed kris..hehe),ate a lot of lutong bahay kahit san mapadpad, The Block,which I spend most of my mall time dhil nga pinaka malapit ang Sm north, rode the trains once again(sikip ng MRT,salamat ets nd jades for LRT2), Tiendesitas for the food galore(kakatuwang expression ni Ate Mau), UP field trip (yes, AS,Eng,Alonso,Chem,Bio... i had my building briefing, and freedom feeling...iba nga talaga ang batang youpee..), then more malls and planet infinty... 

THen not to mention my bonding time with my siblings... super cool,gala, nakakamiss sobra.... Di bale, memories shared together, forever na sa alaala ko yun. Love u both,,syempre, with matching gimik tym with cousins, ratsky which my am cousins had a culture shock but also enjoyed the myx music. Then laffline for a bunch of kabaliwan and katatawanan... Kakamiss din khet papano.

sept2206- hala after how many days tsaka ko lang naituloy....texted some hi's and hello's to people back home, talked to lala na, had an updated message from ets about job interview... thank you for all the replies.....

Let's continue... If there's one major escapade i'll nevr forget, its the three day tour i had. thank you carla,jd,and ethel for making that so possible... walang tatalo sa mga trip naten. cruising around, endless conversations, capturing pictures, inuman session, overnights and hangouts, coffee talks, soundtripping, prankahan blues, 'hot-seat' interviews, pig-out galore (hehe), and anything under the sun, sama mo na pati moon.... galeng..... sobrang miss ko na lhat.

Im back in my work again, yup, and its gonna be busier than ever before... but i hope that the barkada connection will still remain and alive. Ngayon palang, sorry po sa mga araw na hindi ko kayo makakausap,makakasama o mababati sa mga okasyong importante sa buhay niyo...Pasensya na talaga....makakabawi din ako...I know there's no excuse for that, but pardon me, sometimes i just can't...

Sept2 was an unforgettable day. it was indeed a breaking move i decided to make. And the result, i think its positive, way better than i expected. Time flies, and its really fast, were growing old. Gone are the days we use to be so childish, yet we're still young at heart. We miss the old stuff but we're ready for new things. Quirky,fun-loving, embracing moments are very much seen when were out there, yet sadness creeps in when we face our own battles. Fear,rejection,insecurities and even opprotunities hinders connections and decisions, but now, we're braver, tougher and stronger. Reality bites, being happy doesn't mean everthing's perfect, it's just about choosing the positive way of imperfection. We struggle to different pressing matters and concerns for we deal with the real world.

Airports gives me a lot of feelings i need to handle. Departures,arrivals,welcome home or goodbyes. So good when you arrive, so bad when you have to leave. So emo, yes, full of emotions.

For everything you have missed, you have gained something else; And for everything you gain, you lose something else. It is about your outlook towards life. You can either regret or rejoice.

Here's for you, you got me hooked up. You made me smile, you made me cry, you made me crave for you, cause i know my heart belongs to you. Don't know when, don't know how, all i know is that im longing for you.

Trust your heart if the seas catch fire, and live by love though the stars walk backward. Qualicino ti ama, me, wesley.

There goes my update, a little bit of everything. 'Till, next entry again.

Current:

Book- Just finished Love Story by Erich Segal, next, Frank McCourt's Angela's Ashes. (Thank you, a piece of you, being a part of me)

Music- More and more of house music. Just had J.Timberlake's FutureSex/ Lovesound, i'm just amazed how he had ventured ito a different type of music. Wanna dance, wanna sing, just soudtrippin? have it. Timbaland played a big role. period.

TV Show- Grey's Anatomy. I just can't resist it. A show wherein you can pick anybody from the cast and relate yourself cause your going through something like that or you're feeling that same way. Full of issues and great lines, makes you want for more. Had the seasons, but never had the time to watch a marathon.

Feeling- Ready for work. Motivated. In love.

 

 

At last, though i feel tired coming from work.... feeling groggy because of my 13hour shift.., still i need to write... i feel like I owe a lot of updates and stories to tell, eventhough its 134am.....

Yup, some may knew it, the other day was my birthday... as I grew up, I never anticipate my birthday already...Y?, cause I'm scared... scared that I'll end up sad, because im not in the mood of being happy and jolly.... i must admit it was sad.... its because of the workload i had... that's when u think that ud rather prefer schooling than working... for people who wanted to work while theyre still in school...take ur time... coz when its ur turn, there's no turning back... face a bigger role....bigger responsibility...

I came home last 17, past midnight... i looked at the clock and greeted myself....there goes, an emotional turmoil. A sad feeling that would make u ponder and be teary-eyed....its when u think of ur love ones that u miss... whether inside the house (because we barely see now), or outside ur world, having their own.... I miss them all....i just started writing a journal entry, singing 'happy bday to you' to myself.... poor me....(sigh)..

But still, thanks for all the emails, greetings, text mesages that made me feel special.... i dont expect them to greet me, but still it keeps me remindin that somehow im still of importance with them.....thanks for loosening up my sad feelings....if i could just reply and hug-so-tight the way i can.. i would do it.... but reality bites, i can't... all i have are wishes, hopes and prayers...

The past few months made me realize, im getting over with things... Fed up?, i dont know... Sober? I dont know. too.... its just that i dont know if im balancing myself from family bondings, career establishment and attaining a holistic life... Somebody told me that I'm not forced to mature,,, And i dont, cause its all about initiative. Maturity is not anticipated, its something natural, something that grows within.... Its just that we do take pride in ourselves, make own decisions,hate regrets and act responsible enough as days marks the calendar..... Life should be looked at a wider perspective and infinite range....

I've met a lot of people at my age... shared moments, shared stories, ended up happy, ended up missing, and still learning.... And with that, I have love myself more and understand how life goes.... I may not be a pro, but i can talk, feel and show, how it is to be human...

Current:

Book: Guys Write for Guys Read by Jon Scieska

Music:: Beegees-Love Songs and Coldplay-Parachutes (Thank god for completing their album, its a good investment!)

Age, Height, and Weight: a year older, an inch higher, 5 pounds heavier (grr...)

Mood: Doin just fine, not so happy, incomplete, sleepy... make sense?

Stories: I'll be having a new niece later and will be having a post bday dinner.. Today is my day off,,, hay, time to sleep...

Love: Still the same

Thats it....till next entry again... ciao....

 

my morning started with something unexpected. though my days were GIVEN, as something that's very routinous, it ended as a damn-so-sad morning till afternoon... my boss will be leaving soon, packing up her things, ready for resigning.... a shocking news that i never wanted to hear. its just crazy enough that personal problems took over her working pace. its when you're on top and everything seems to be on its proper place, but still u ended up going back at one.

she's always been an easy-going, fun-loving, someone who always gets of her way during unmet deadlines, meetings, delinquent payrolls and all that office stuff. leaving for mainland is her next step. i just hope she'll make it. but for the staff that made her best, we'll surely miss her. i'll never forget how much i have learned and learned to love my job. she's one hell of inspiration. adios my manager. ill be relocated soon. i hope i still can make it.

naah... its just that my typical days are getting boring.... and im tired of being use to it....since my environment is different from it used to be,,, drastic changes occurs and major shift is expected.... nevertheless, i have to work with it.. or else ill be doomed... so go on and work hard...life is complicated but life is beautiful..

stay stong...stay happy....

It’s always been difficult to look at the past year,
and all you can remember is about what should you’ve
done.. plain and simple, I hate regrets. That’s why
you make up another resolution and I don’t know why
what’s that for…. If  I was able to make it, good but
if not, sorry… Over the past 19 years of my life,
truly 2005 is significant and indefinable… had a lot
of experiences I wont ever forget… I hope and I guess…
dealing with people, their self-centered stories,
arguments and achievements, laugh out loud or crying
out loud scenarios, lovely or damn-so-crazy
relationships, still, I am a good listener….and
gladly, an adviser..

Life being defined is not easy… no way…. No way you
can hardly give that best definition when people start
giving their opinion… whatever it may be… life can be
fair or unfair…. Or rather both… sometimes, I hardly
understand why you have to be in situations you don’t
like to be into, wherein you can make choices… choices
of what to say or what to do… but then again, in this
vast world were living in, human beings are carried
away by their emotions and experiences that greatly
affects and varies each decision…in the end, what they feel worthy wins...

Moments happen every single second of every single day... either mostly consumed by hours of things you dont mind or enliving scenarios you're fully delighted.. But then again, we do forget that when small things are made, gradually it becomes something big... People would be consistent, sometimes out of the blue, but whatever kind of presence they have, im glad for their affection...

As i looked back, i miss a lot of people... High school friends whose been growing with their own craziness, relationship handling, lovelife or school wreckage, breaking out, and countless issues that determines their personality.. I miss my sister whom I always count on... her smile and pieces of advice that leads me to a postive oulook of life.. my dear ate, luv u as always... to my relatives, who's been always as supportive and encouraging, thank you for the help and love, especially to the cousins, (whose same as generation, hehe..) been active for longtime and keep on thriving as time goes on.... and for the special people who made me feel special.. silence might not be the best way to display affection, but indeed Someone knows, how much i do feel greatly.....

thank God for all the blessings, for i know there will be more... good fun, good food, good peeps, i had a wonderful last year and new year's eve. now, its time to sleep and be ready for whatever that comes my way.... come what may, and may it be...love u..wes..

done and out...boom!

 

below are some christmas quotes, if u hav tym, read, if not, just skip and browse.... mewee kwismas!!!!

Christmas Quotes

I've seen the face of Jesus...
It was a wondrous sight!
Oh, glorious face of beauty,
oh gentle touch of care;
If here it is so blessed, 
what will it be up there?
--W. Spencer Walton

The best Christmas gift of all is the presence of a happy family all wrapped up with one another.

Jesus is the reason for the season!

From a little spark may burst a mighty flame.

The only blind person at Christmastime is he who has not Christmas in his heart.
--Helen Keller

There is no name so sweet on earth,
no name so sweet in heaven,
The name, before His wondrous birth,
to Christ the Savior given.
--George W. Bethune

What can I give Him,
Poor as I am?
If I were a shepherd
I would bring a lamb.
If I were a Wise Man
I would do my part.
Yet what can I give Him?
I give Him my heart.
--Christina Rossetti

Christ was one child Who knew more than His parents--yet He obeyed them.

A Christian is one who makes it easier for other people to believe in God.

Keeping Christmas is good. but sharing it with others is even better.

How beautiful to walk in the steps of the Savior, led in paths of light.
--E. Hewitt

The three wise men saw the light and followed it.  
They are rightly called wise!

Christmas, my child, is love in action.  Every time we love, every time we give, it's Christmas.
--Dale Evans

A joy that is shared is a joy made double.
--John Roy

Let's approach Christmas with an expectant hush,
 rather than a last-minute rush.

God grant you the light in Christmas, which is faith;
the warmth of Christmas, which is love;
the radiance of Christmas, which is purity;
the righteousness of Christmas, which is justice;
the belief in Christmas, which is truth;
the all of Christmas, which is Christ.
--Wilda English

It is not the gift, but the thought that counts.
-Van Dyke

Remembrance, like a candle, burns brightest at Christmastime.
--Charles Dickens

Born in a stable,
Cradled in a manger,
In the world His hands have made,
Born a stranger.
--Christine Georgina Rossetti

Christianity is not a religion, it is a relationship.
--Dr. Thieme

Christmas living is the best kind of Christmas giving.
--Van Dyke

The way you spend Christmas is far more important than how much.
--Henry David Thoreau

I never realized God's birth before,
How He grew likest God in being born...
Such ever love's way--to rise, it stoops.
--Robert Browning

The way to Christmas lies through an ancient gate....It is a little gate, child-high, child-wide, and there is a password:
"Peace on earth to men of good will."
May you, this Christmas, become as a little child again and enter into His  kingdom.
--Angelo Patri

Giving yourself is the greatest gift of all.

Love is a circle that goes on and on and on.

Do all the good you can,
By all the means you can,
In all the ways you can,
In all the places you can,
At all the times you can!
--John Wesley

Take Christ out of Christmas, and December becomes the bleakest and most colorless month of the year.
--A. F. Wells

Whatever else you give to your children, give them roots and give them wings.

You can never truly enjoy Christmas until you can look up into the Father's face and tell him you have received his Christmas gift.
--John R. Rice

The great man is he who does not lose his child's heart.
--Mencius

We may seek God by our intellect, but we only can find him with our heart.
--Cotvos

The only gift is a portion of thyself.
--Emerson

The hinge of history is on the door of a Bethlehem stable.
--Ralph W. Sockman

Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.

Christmas is a spark that ignites in someone's heart.

How many angels are there?
One--who transforms our life--is plenty.

Selfishness makes Christmas a burden;
Love makes it a delight.

The joy of brightening a child's heart creates the magic of Christmas.
--W. C. Jones

Now and then it's good to pause in our pursuit of happiness and just be happy.
--Guillaume Apollinaire

Seek joy in what you give... not in what you get.

Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty;
not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some.
--Charles Dickens

The very purpose of Christ's coming into the world was that He might offer up His life as a sacrifice for the sins of men.  He came to die.  This is the heart of Christmas.
--Rev. Billy Graham

Christmas is telling time--wondering time.  Wonder enough about it, and you'll know, and you'll tell about it....
--Roy Rogers

So remember while December
Brings the only Christmas Day,
In the year let there be Christmas
In the things you do and say;
Wouldn't life be worth the living
Wouldn't dreams be coming true
If we kept the Christmas spirit
All the whole year through?
--unknown

If we think of our heart,
rather than our purse,
as the reservoir
of our giving,
we shall find it
full all the time!
--David Dunn

There are two ways to live your life.
One is as though nothing is a miracle.
The other is as though everything is a miracle.
--Albert Einstein

I am not alone at all, I thought.  I was never alone at all.  And that, of course, is the message of Christmas.  We are never alone.  Not when the night is darkest, the wind coldest, the world seemingly most indifferent.  For this is still the time God chooses.
--Taylor Caldwell

The great man is he who does not lose his child's heart.

The means to gain happiness
is to throw out from oneself,
like a spider,
in all directions
an adhesive web of love,
and to catch in it
all that comes.
--LeoTolstoy

It is Christmas every time you let God love others through you...yes, it is Christmas every time you smile at your brother and offer him your hand.
--Mother Teresa

It comes every year and will go on forever.  And along with Christmas belong the keepsakes and the customs.  Those humble, everyday things a mother clings to, and ponders, like Mary in the secret spaces of her heart.
--Marjorie Holmes

Each day of the holidays comes bringing its own gifts. 
Open your heart,
Untie the ribbons,
and enjoy the contents!

Were earth a thousand times as fair
Beset with gold and jewels rare
She yet were far too poor to be
A narrow cradle,
Lord, for Thee.
--Martin Luther

Love and life
That's why He came, and what He offers,
Christmas isn't just for children.
It's for the world.

Don't worry if your Christmas card list seems to be growing each year.  Instead, be grateful!  It just means you're making friends faster than you are losing them.

A little child
a shining star
a stable rude,
the door ajar.
Yet in that place
so crude, forlorn,
The Hope of all
the world was born.
--Anonymous

Christmas began in the heart of God.  It is complete only when it reaches the heart of man.
--Anonymous

Thanks be to God for His unspeakable Gift--
indescribable
inestimable
incomparable
inexpressible
precious beyond words.
--Lois Lebar

Appreciation is a wonderful thing:
it makes what is excellent in others
belong to us as well.
--Voltaire

The Christmas season reminds us that a demonstration of religion is always much better than a definition of it...especially in front of the kids.

Perhaps the best Yuletide decorations are to be wreathed in smiles and wrapped in hugs.

The miracle of Christmas is that a baby can be so decisive.

It is good to be children sometimes, and never better than at Christmas, when its mighty founder was a child himself.
--Charles Dickens

Christmas is not just a day, an event to be observed and speedily forgotten.  It is a spirit which should permeate every part of our lives.
--William Parks

i just saw jasmine trias last night... she sang three christmas songs for the finale of concert in hawaii halei park..... i just can't believe i saw her in person... seeing her sang inseparable was unbelievable, amazing it was indeed...... next artist: camille v. hopefully.